Talking Head Dream

August 22, 2015

 Talking Head Dream

Last night I dreamed. I saw a head (Man) without a body. In my dream I kept seeing him talking. He was talking on a stage continually. Then I saw him lying down on a bed. He was calling for someone to come and pick him up. When no one came he started yelling and getting angry. I didn’t realize at the time it was a spiritual dream. I asked, “How is this head functioning without a body?” I then saw shoulders, actually just flabby like flesh (no bones) in the place of the shoulders. I saw dangling down from it, 2 or 3 organs. I believe one was a heart, possibly a liver, and one other organ. It was difficult to distinguish what they were, because they were shriveled up and looked to have no life in them.

 I then saw a piece of paper. It was a contract for ten years and the ten years were expired. It seemed the price during the past ten year was a reasonable price to support the head and keep it functioning, but now the price was extremely expensive. I don’t remember the exact amount, but it was thousands compared to the small price before. In the dream, I thought it was some sort of insurance policy that had been providing support for the head.

I saw someone reluctantly writing out a check for the new amount. They knew no other insurance company would provide for this head, so they were forced to pay the extravagant price of the new policy in order to keep supporting this head.

Toward the end of the dream I asked the Lord, “What does this mean?”  

 “This is how my church is functioning right now.”

Then I awoke.

 

Quick review for 2014

So much has been happening in my life since my last post. Last summer (2014) I met a lady named Carol. She and a couple of people from her church were walking down our street with the hopes of sharing Jesus with people. Since we connected up I have gone with her witnessing. My life has shifted tremendously since meeting her.


I went to a workshop in September called, "Simply the Story". It is a fantastic way to learn how to teach the word. It is an interactive, oral teaching style that causes people to actually remember the Bible Studies. If  you're interested in learning about this comment below and I'll get you the link. They will come to  your church and teach this workshop.  This same organization teaches how to witness. I have learned so much from them.


I also got involved with intercessory prayer in my own home. I did have one horrible experience that came out of that. Only by God's grace was I able to move on past this. A person I prayed with for 9 months betrayed me. I forgave her and tried to meet with her to resolve issues, but she kept backing out, so finally, I let it go. Anyway, this experience put me in bad light within my church leadership. It's another one of those things that God is working to pull out of me and that is the need of validation from spiritual leaders.   I do believe I'm stronger as a result of this experience. 


I came really close to giving up on attending church,  but I'm still here. True to his nature, the enemy of our souls tried to torment me with false accusations. We must never forget our true identity!


God graciously brought other ladies into my life who have a tremendous depth of understanding of God and pray with me on a weekly basis. Unfortunately, one dear friend is moving out of state.  I'm not sure what my next writing project will be. I tried to write about the kingdom of heaven here on this earth, but I think it's too big for me to write on it. I keep getting bits and pieces of revelation. Maybe one day I'll try again.


I was so passionate about writing, but going out and sharing Jesus with people is becoming my new love. I still love to write, but it takes so much time to get the final draft complete and publishable. Grammar is not my strength. It is something I keep striving to improve. My book, "Legalism, the Other Gospel, was not professionally edited. I've learned so much about writing since it was publish and I cringe at all the mistakes. I remind myself Jesus used rough fishermen, so maybe He can use me. I just know the paradigm shift in my life was so tremendous it was too important not to share with others.

The Glory within!

Remember when Solomon was dedicating the temple. He admitted that no building could contain the whole of God, but He asked God to bless this place as a place of prayer. The Glory of God filled the temple and the priests were unable to stand in this glorious presence of God.

On the way to church last Sunday the Lord connected some dots for me. I was thinking of the Glory that filled the temple and the Holy Spirit reminded me that Solomon's temple no longer exists. We human beings are now the temple of God and His Glory fills us. Whoa momma! Just meditate on that for awhile!

When I got to church my pastor taught on this very thing and this is the scriptures he gave us! 

Isaiah 60:1-4  (NASB)

A Glorified Zion

60 “Arise, shine; for your light has come,
And the glory of the Lord has risen upon you.
² “For behold, darkness will cover the earth
And deep darkness the peoples;
But the Lord will rise upon you
And His glory will appear upon you.
³ “Nations will come to your light,
And kings to the brightness of your rising.

⁴ “Lift up your eyes round about and see;
They all gather together, they come to you.
Your sons will come from afar,
And your daughters will be carried in the arms.

Leaving behind

Sunday morning as I got up the Holy Spirit was reminding me of Abraham. God had asked Abraham to leave his clan, his country, and all that was familiar to follow Him. As I meditated on this scene in my head I realized what a leap of faith this was for Abraham. In those days the only safety was with your clan. All young boys had to learn to fight to survive the harsh world they lived in. Marauding bands of cutthroats could sweep down on a community and wipe them out, stealing everything thing they wanted, ravishing their women and killing anyone that got in their way. So banding together as a community was essential for survival.

Abraham was asked to leave all that behind and follow a God he could not see! Jesus said to Thomas, the disciple that doubted His resurrection, "Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed." (John 20:29 KJV)

We too, like Abraham are asked to believe in Jesus without ever seeing Him. Yet in all this we are so blessed. Giving up the Kingdom of Darkness, for the Kingdom of Light is no sacrifice. The Kingdom of Heaven is upside down compared to our modern day cultural. We are told whomever wants to be first must be last. Position doesn't bring lasting contentment. To be admired and loved by the world doesn't fill the hole within us. But, coming to understand God's unconditional love for us fills our hearts to over flowing. Being baptized in His Holy Spirit is indescribable. Learning to walk by faith with His Holy Spirit leading us is an adventure so much more than anything this world has to offer.

Broken Pieces

I have a dear friend that has been rejected, abused, violated, and abandoned by people that should have cherished and loved her. As I was worshipping the Lord in church this past week the Lord showed me a picture and told me it was for my friend.
I saw in this picture broken pottery pieces scattered on the ground. I could tell those broken pieces had been there a long time for the edges were no longer sharp. They had been worn smooth with time. The Holy Spirit told me to look closer, as I gazed on the pottery pieces I saw a variety of beautiful flowers growing up through the broken pottery pieces.
The next morning I was prompted to call my friend and describe the picture I saw.
When I got her on the phone and started describing the picture God gave specifically for her, the Holy Spirit burst forth with a beautiful word for her. I can't even remember all that was said. The gist of it was that God created beauty within all her brokenness. This beauty God created shows His glory in what He can do with a life that has been broken in so many pieces by the selfishness of this world. She started crying and told me she had just been praying and was asking God what He could do with all the broken pieces of her life!

Later that week as I thought of that picture I asked the Lord why He didn't remove all the broken pieces, and I was reminded of His hands and feet. He was broken for us and when we see His scars we see the glory of God!

Here is a little poem I wrote.

See the broken pieces Lord
Scatter on the ground
Look at all the brokenness
Scatter all around

He said look again
Tell me what you see
I saw beauty bursting forth
Coming from the pieces

But why my Lord did you not
Clear away the broken pot
Why the scars Lord for all to see

Then He showed me
His hands and feet
It was then, I finally saw
All the beauty of the scars

It was in His broken pieces that
He was glorified and when we look
at Him we see the beauty of the scars

Now I look so differently
At the wonder of His plan
Now I see the beauty
in all the broken pieces.

We are one

John 17
²² The glory which You have given Me I have given to them, that they may be one, just as We are one; ²³ I in them and You in Me, that they may be perfected in unity, so that the world may know that You sent Me, and loved them, even as You have loved Me. ²⁴ Father, I desire that they also, whom You have given Me, be with Me where I am, so that they may see My glory which You have given Me, for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.
²⁵ “O righteous Father, although the world has not known You, yet I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me; ²⁶ and I have made Your name known to them, and will make it known, so that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.”

Every day I pray for the Lord to show me a little more about Himself. It is as we know Him that we grow and function as the human creature that God made us to be. Last night I had a peculiar dream. I saw a lone man and I saw the Holy Spirit enter into that man and took on the shape of that man. The man had been walking, but now he was walking with the Spirit within Him. Since the Spirit was invisible (don't ask me how I could see the invisible, it was a dream after all), the man and Spirit were operating as one. The Spirit and the man were communicating with one another without even using words. Strange dream. I'm not sure the words here are adequate to convey what I actually saw, but it gives you something to think about.

There is a sweetness to the above scriptures that conveys to me that God is eager to impart this glory to us, that His Holy Spirit is within us. The Trinitarian God is within us. We then are joined to each other as a body of Christ, as one! Beautiful. Think about it!

Is God really the Judge?

Is God really the judge?

Many times through my Christian life I have heard the illustration of God being the judge and we're guilty standing before this judge and Jesus is the prosecuting attorney who takes our place and receives the punishment that we should have gotten instead.

This has some aspects to it that are true, but is this truly the character of God. As I read the New Testament,  I come away with a different idea of who this God is.

This Judge and attorney presents me with a Legal Gospel. Jesus is the exact representation of God our Father in Heaven. So when we see Jesus we're seeing how God really is. This is what He said.

John 3:17-19(NASB)

¹⁷ For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. ¹⁸ He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. ¹⁹ This is the judgment, that the Light has come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the Light, for their deeds were evil.

It sounds to me that Jesus is more like the Father searching the horizon for his son to come home. Jesus is the Good Shepherd that goes on a search and rescue mission to retrieve back just one lost sheep. We were created to live in the love of God, receiving it and sharing it with others. It's a different picture then the courtroom. It's more like the family home with the table set with a feast and loved ones sitting all around it, enjoying just being together.